It's been a long, long time. i've probably hit one of the most confusing times ever. its not that I've been terribly sad but I've been so blah. I've been feeling nothing. There have been a few times where I've almost done some rash things. But I didn't, and I'm here. I've joined my school's theater program and I'm in love with my crew and the cast (Which I sadly am not a part of) and managed to pull myself up and out of this self-hatred funk. I've met so many new people and grown closer to some of the best people I'll ever know, but have grown away from the person I love most. She's actually the reason I started this youtube, the reason I didn't hate myself during middle school, and the reason I can laugh the way I do. She gave me Sanders Sides, she gave me my ridiculous sense of humor, and she gave me inspiration. We're writing buddies and beyond. We go to different schools now but dear gods I'll never let her go. She'll probably read this then text me and be like 'GAY' and she'll be right. And don't get me started on you guys. How could this happen? Almost two thousand people know I exist. That's mind-blowing. Crazy. I kinda didn't realize I was reaching people until I read the comments. Thank you so much for those. A h HH-
I may not be happy every day, I may not always love myself, but there are people to love and things worth loving. Art is one of them, music is one of them. You reading this? you're one of them. I love you :)
Song-
Let Us Adore you (Reprise) from the Steven Universe Movie
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