[SFM] Outdated Hardware

"...I'm sorry to say Miss, but as of now, you're just another piece of outdated hardware."


Song is LÜNE - Absences

It's been a while, but I guess I'm back. I missed you guys, I missed animating. I'm glad to be back.

Although I am feeling well enough to do some smaller scale animations like this one, unfortunately I'm still relatively sick. Bigger stuff will come out eventually, though at a slower pace than before, but I'm going to try my best to upload some fun smaller things more often in between the big stuff.

One of the reasons it's taken me so long to come back is the fact that, while I was away, I would often start work on a big new project, get a ways into making it, and then get stuck because the project had become simply too intricate for me to complete it properly while I'm sick. I didn't trust myself to do it right, nor could I, as even if I tried to force myself I was too fatigued to do anything on the project anyways.

This took quite a hit to my self-esteem, as I couldn't work nearly as well as I once did, and some hurtful words and attitudes from a few people close to me did an even larger number on my self-worth.

This became a cycle, and I began piling up projects I couldn't complete over the years that I've been away. Each becoming more and more difficult and daunting to approach, as there were so many piling up and so many necessary details I had to keep track of attached to each one of them (script, choreography, sounds, voice lines, hundreds of models and textures, custom particles, custom edits of said models and textures, backups, mislabeled files and folders due to me flopping through organizational work amongst my fatigue)

I've been working on these projects very briefly off and on for years, and I don't plan on scrapping them until I can give them a fair shot when I'm back to full health.

I've missed animating so much though, and I wanted to accomplish something of value, so I decided to start animating my smaller ideas that I had previously discarded due to my strange sense of perfectionism. I developed the mindset that I could only post my polished big projects on this channel and absolutely nothing less. I wanted every video on my channel to be something substantial in some way or another. Short meme animations, or anything less than a 2 minute long serious project was unacceptable in my mind. I felt as if people would view me in a different light if I did that, not take me as seriously or view me as an amateur. I felt this way so strongly I even considered privatizing the majority of my older animations that I felt weren't up to my standards. In recent times though, I've began to realize that a lot of people seem to really enjoy other animator's smaller projects or unfinished stuff, even if it's uploaded to their main channels.
Since I'm starting to feel a bit better, and I'm so desperate to do something for once, I figured I might as well give it a shot.

The main character in this specific short (Outdated Hardware) was an integral part of one of those big projects I was talking about. I wanted her reveal to be unique to the world that that project took place in, but, since I have no idea when I'm going to finish that project, I wanted to do her justice in some way because she's just such a cool character that I'd hate to see her go to waste in the case that I am never able to complete said project.

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